It’s been 2 weeks since I started this weight loss journey, and I can honestly say I haven’t felt this good in a long time. Not only from a health, how my body feels, standpoint, but from a confidence stand point. I walk with my head held just a little higher now, because I know what I’m doing is working, and in the end, it will all be worth it.
For breakfast/lunch (I really need to start waking up earlier so I don’t skip my first meal) I had the same thing as yesterday, but I was out of bell peppers :( I also had a whole tortilla instead of 1/2. It kept me full until around 5pm. So I got a passion fruit iced tea from Starbucks w/ 2 sweet n lows to hold me over till dinner. I had a banana as well!
For dinner I had 2 oz. of Barilla “Plus” rotini, 3 oz. of tofu sauteed in 1 1/2 tablespoons of pre made pesto with 2 teaspoons of grated Parmesan cheese on top. OMG it was SO DELICIOUS! I found the recipe online! I was craving salt, so for a late night snack I had some baked Tostito’s scoop chips w/ a dip consisting of 2 tablespoons of sour cream, 2 tablespoons of salsa, and 1/8 of shredded cheese! Again, so yummy.
My total today was 1195 calories :D
2 weeks, and almost 5 pounds down!
So I had my check-in with the doctor today……. I LOST 4 POUNDS! To be honest, I don’t think I’ve ever lost weight before. I’ve just been either maintaining or gaining my whole life. So this was HUGE! I’m so ecstatic!!! This proves to me that just counting calories, even with 2 bad days in the past 2 weeks has worked! Ahh I honestly cannot contain my excitement!!!
So for breakfast/lunch (woke up late again) I had 1 egg, 6 tablespoons of egg whites, 1/8 cup of cheese, 2 oz. chopped red bell pepper, 1 tablespoon of milk, and 2 slices of turkey bacon on half of a whole wheat tortilla with 1 tablespoon of cream cheese. Came out to 370 calories and was SOOOOOO yummy. Had a bottle of water with it as well.
Today was bad lol! Since it was mother’s day, I took my grandma out to lunch. I decided to treat myself, for no reason, to eggs with sausage, hashbrowns with ketchup, and one piece of french toast. Boy was it good lol! But they didn’t have a nutrition menu, so I wasn’t able to count the calories. For dinner, my whole family went to the casino for their mother’s day buffet (ick, bad idea for those watching what they eat). But, I loaded up on a huge salad with lettuce, sunflower seeds, carrots, a little cheese, and a little bit of ranch. Had about an 1/8 of a cup of tuna salad with it. For the main bit, I had stir fried green beans, salmon, coconut shrimp, and a little bit of scalloped potatoes. Had some strawberries and pineapple with a little but of chocolate gelato for dessert. Wasn’t the best meal, but wasn’t terrible either.
Tomorrow is my check in with the doctor. Hopefully the last two weeks of frugally counting calories has paid off, even a little. We shall see tomorrow!
I was super busy this past week since finals are coming up, but I’ve managed to stay within my 1200 calories per day each day! (I think) The only reason I say I think is because last night my cousins and I went to a Mexican restaurant for dinner and they didn’t have nutritional info. So I’m assuming my plate was around 1,000 calories (3 tortillas, chicken, rice, and queso). I only ate about 1/3 of it and took the rest home for today and tomorrow. Anyways, this past week was good! Being able to stay within 1200 calories has been surprisingly easy. I’ve been drinking TONS of water, so that helps me to stay full and not over-eat. This coming Monday is my 2 week check in with the doctor here at student health. I’m so excited to see if I’ve lost any weight. Even if it’s just a pound or two, I will be ecstatic because it will prove to me what I’m doing is working and worth it. I haven’t added any exercise to my life. So if just eating better and staying within 1200 calories is doing what it needs to do, I’m going to be so happy.
Today has been much easier! I woke up a little late, so I didn’t end up eating breakfast. I know, terrible. But it was already 10:30 by the time I rolled out of bed, and I usually don’t eat until 2 or so hours after I wake up. So lunch for me today was left overs from dinner two nights ago. I had a piece of chicken breast, 1 cup of quinoa and brown rice, 1/4 cup of black beans, and some tortilla strips on top to add some salt! One of my absolute favorite meals!!! It came out to being around 370 calories. I didn’t get hungry till around 6:30 or so, and I was out and about so I just had a 60 calorie slice of cheese to hold me over till my aunt and I made dinner. Dinner was so yummy! We had baked hot ham and cheese sandwiches with ortega french fries. It came out to 405 calories, and it completely filled me up. I have 300 calories left for the day, so I’m going to treat myself to a milano cookie, maybe two.
Anyway, today was much easier mentally than yesterday. I was sitting in a bubble bath and looked at myself in the mirror and thought to myself “I can’t wait until I’m skinny”. I had to do a double take on that thought because it has never been “I AM”. It’s always been “I wish I was skinny” or “I wish I had the motivation to get skinny”. My thoughts were never positive about this process. Noticing that change in mindset has given me so much motivation and confidence in myself that I CAN and WILL do this! I can’t wait to see what this journey will bring me. As I said in my first blog post, I know this journey is going to be more mental than anything. Honestly, this will probably be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. But I am so ready for the challenge. I can’t wait to see myself one year from now.
Day three down to becoming a HAPPY and HEALTHY woman!
Woke up this morning feeling good. Slept really well. Had two cups of coffee with a little milk and sweet n low. Breakfast consisted of 1 egg, 6 tablespoons of egg white egg beaters, 1/8 cup of chopped red bell pepper, 1/8 cup kraft mexican cheese blend, 1/2 of a plain bagel, and 1 tablespoon of Philadelphia plain cream cheese. It all came out to 375 calories! Breakfast for me is easy because I love eggwhites and bagels. So seeing that my favorite breakfast meal is under my 400 calorie per meal allotment is so awesome! Looking forward to adding in some more veggies to my eggs.
One meal down!
Was in class during lunch, and I knew me and my family were going out to dinner so I held off till then. Ate at chik-fil-a, not the best choice, but I was starving. Had a chicken sandwich and fries.
Went over my daily calorie limit by 35, which was a total surprise! I thought I’d be over by a ton after eating fast food, but I kept it at 1235! Yay!
Day 2 down!
After years of setting new years resolutions and making promises to myself, I have finally begun my weight loss journey. Two days ago my doctor put me on a 1200 calorie a day weight loss plan. I’m starting out at 211 pounds. I’m 5’3 and 20 years old. I’ve dealt with my weight since before I can even remember. I don’t ever remember being skinny. After my mom was relocated to San Diego from our home state of Iowa, I began finding comfort in food. I remember some days I would come home from school, before the babysitter, and binge until I felt satisfied. My mom was working a lot, so food was what I turned to to keep myself happy. I don’t really know what triggered it, I think it was because food was the only thing I felt was constant in my life. Actually, I know that’s what it was. After moving, I had hardly any friends, and since my mom was working a lot, food became my best friend. I would eat anything I could find in the kitchen. After years of being called fat, a pig, and being made fun of by my peers, I began to find comfort in cigarettes, alcohol, weed, and ecstasy. This was in high school. When I was high, I was happy. Not that I wasn’t when I was sober, but being high made me happy with myself, and I thought I was beginning to love myself. But the love and satisfaction was only temporary. The drugs only lasted with me for a while, and I was done with it by the time I went to college. College came, and being put in the same situation I was in when I moved to San Diego, I found comfort in food again and felt as lost as ever. I have always been the fat friend of the group. But I learned to compensate by being super bubbly and friendly to everyone, because I was not graced with the same attitude from others for most of my life.
So here I am today, May 1st 2013, starting the beginning of the rest of my life. On my way to becoming a happy, healthy young woman.
Today wasn’t as bad as I thought it would be. Breakfast was fine, but I was hungry shortly after. I fought it off by drinking way more water than I usually do. I knew the worst of the day was yet to come though. Nighttime is when I binge, specifically right before I go to bed. Today was successful though, I kept under my 1200 calorie goal by only eating 1096. My mind is telling me to go to the kitchen and binge until I’m stuffed. But my stomach isn’t growling. So I know I’m not hungry. I know some days I will fail, I know this journey won’t be easy, but if I don’t do this now, I never will. This is the time of my life when I’m supposed to be enjoying life and everything it has to offer. I’m going to change my life, no one can do it for me. Through this first day, I’ve realized this is going to more mental than anything. I have to fight the demons inside my head, and fight the urge to binge. I’m strong though, and I have a support system. I can do this. I have to do this.